Change

Its amazing how an event in your life can change you forever. I went over to Cambridge last week to do my bike test, it was the first time in an airport without Jill and it was unreal. The smell of the perfume in the duty free, all the happy couples going on holiday, people laughing and having fun. On the way back I got a lift on the back of a motorbike the 150 miles to east midlands. I walked into the airport in my jeans and tshirt, a motorbike helmet and a back pack on. I began to think how my life has changed since Jill went home and wondered as the world looked on, who or what they would consider me to be. Certainly not the senior pastor of a church, maybe not even the father of 4 grown up kids or a grandad of 2.
Heres my point, if you are in this situation today remember this, change isn't all bad, we are just afraid of it. I have talked to so many people who have lost loved ones who are afraid to change. Everything has stayed the same for them, clothes still in the wardrobe, trying to live in the same routines. Listen to me and I say this with much pain and love. "Its not the same, it never will be, stop living in an unreal world and allow change into your life". The reason I say this is because as long as you refuse to change you refuse to accept the reality of what has happened and remember, I repeat, "Change isn't all bad, we are just afraid of it".