Whatever works

Week 13 started on Thursday for us, its funny how slow time goes when you are living every second of every minute of every day and sometimes nights as well. Time does march on but it seems Jill has been gone years instead of only weeks. So much has changed about our home, our homemaker is gone and I have had to do some rare things. I have now got a motorbike, I walk miles everyday and I climb mountains. It has been said to me that I am running away from it, (that’s a stupid thing to say) my answer is, “I couldn’t run fast enough if I where superman”. As I do my new ventures I am often reminded of why I do them, and listen, no motorbike is fast enough and no mountain is high enough to quench the pain of grief, but it helps. Our normal has changed forever but out there is a new normal, I mightn't like it all but I have convinced myself it might not all be bad. So my new motto to my kids is “DO WHATEVER WORKS”. I have found myself lately reversing the roles in my mind and thinking what would I be encouraging Jill to do now if I where taken and her left. I think I would encourage her to get on with the Kings Business and DO WHATEVER WORKS.
Love yas