The Future

Another tough weekend but its another one down praise God. I will never have to live that weekend again nor can you. We can only live now because none of us know the future. Now theres a scary word for me at the minute, the Future. Jill and I had many plans for the future, she was a dreamer as those who knew her will smile and remember. No road to long, no hill to steep for my Jill. I on the other hand am a goal setter, a logical thinker, (boring) so when we talked together Jill would dream and I would try to pick out the stuff that we could maybe some day try. I always said Jill was the accelerater and I was the brake in our house. We had this dream of building our own home when all the kids got married, we would sit up late and talk about it and Jill would sketch out the plans on the back of some random piece of paper.
Now I don't know what the future holds for me and I get scared looking ahead and its too painful at the moment to look back. Its like being stuck in a time warp, a vacumn. I suppose we all have to leave the future in the hands of the only one who knows it and that's God. My sister Trisha gave me a banner which hangs in my bedroom, it's Jeremiah 29:11 "I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".
I'm glad God knows cause I ain't got a clue.
Love yas, and remember what I told you. 'Hug loads and Love much'