Homesick....
Over the last couple of weeks I have become more acutely aware of a feeling of homesickness. It is impossible to find the feeling of 'home' anywhere at present - that feeling of wholeness and completeness has gone and as much as I desire to feel at home again it seems that it cannot be found.
Home is heaven I have realised, and as it feels as if parts of me have already been taken there, I find myself longing for God to wrap things up on this earth, allowing the new world to come into being, so that once again I might feel that sense of 'home' and wholeness. I think this feeling is even more real to me because the more I reflect on the last year the more I realise I had the deep, deep privilege of tasting something of heaven with Lins and I long for that feeling again. That feeling of 'home' - it's hard to put into words but I pray you can know what I mean - the feeling of being settled and centered and completed in your soul.
It leaves me feeling like a bit of an alien in this world at present - a wanderer, a nomad, a pilgrim, journeying through life seeking to find home. It is a complete paradigm shift, where the lenses through which you looked at the world have been totally changed and the broader context of heaven frames your whole outlook on life.
A friend helped point out that Jesus was homeless too - no-where to lay His head. He journeyed and wandered around on His mission before He returned 'home'. In a strange, painful way I have a tiny glimpse of what it must have felt like.
For all of us who claim to follow Jesus, our home is in heaven. We get to experience echoes of that sense of 'home' on earth - With our family's as we grow up, with friends, and maybe most closely with a lover. But heaven is our ultimate home. Where are souls will find ultimate rest, peace and an overwhelming sense of being 'home.'
Sure, God has made us all to be connected to life here on earth and through His Spirit we should embrace all the echoes of heaven we have been created for on earth - through friendship, marriage, sacrifice, love, mercy, giving and justice. Enjoy the feelings of 'home' on earth just don't make yourself too at home here if you know what I mean. This is not the final destination. All these echoes will take on a fuller and purer and sweeter sound when the new world is revealed.
For now though it feels like Lins is at 'home' and I have been left here on a 'missions trip' experiencing severely intense forms of homesickness, groaning with creation for the redemption of this earth and the revealing of the new.....
Home is heaven I have realised, and as it feels as if parts of me have already been taken there, I find myself longing for God to wrap things up on this earth, allowing the new world to come into being, so that once again I might feel that sense of 'home' and wholeness. I think this feeling is even more real to me because the more I reflect on the last year the more I realise I had the deep, deep privilege of tasting something of heaven with Lins and I long for that feeling again. That feeling of 'home' - it's hard to put into words but I pray you can know what I mean - the feeling of being settled and centered and completed in your soul.
It leaves me feeling like a bit of an alien in this world at present - a wanderer, a nomad, a pilgrim, journeying through life seeking to find home. It is a complete paradigm shift, where the lenses through which you looked at the world have been totally changed and the broader context of heaven frames your whole outlook on life.
A friend helped point out that Jesus was homeless too - no-where to lay His head. He journeyed and wandered around on His mission before He returned 'home'. In a strange, painful way I have a tiny glimpse of what it must have felt like.
For all of us who claim to follow Jesus, our home is in heaven. We get to experience echoes of that sense of 'home' on earth - With our family's as we grow up, with friends, and maybe most closely with a lover. But heaven is our ultimate home. Where are souls will find ultimate rest, peace and an overwhelming sense of being 'home.'
Sure, God has made us all to be connected to life here on earth and through His Spirit we should embrace all the echoes of heaven we have been created for on earth - through friendship, marriage, sacrifice, love, mercy, giving and justice. Enjoy the feelings of 'home' on earth just don't make yourself too at home here if you know what I mean. This is not the final destination. All these echoes will take on a fuller and purer and sweeter sound when the new world is revealed.
For now though it feels like Lins is at 'home' and I have been left here on a 'missions trip' experiencing severely intense forms of homesickness, groaning with creation for the redemption of this earth and the revealing of the new.....
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